Regular Blogenberg readers (an astounding number, if you ask me!) know that I’ve experienced serious success lately: Inc. 500 and three federal contracting wins.

It sucks.

That’s my biggest frustration. The more successful I become the less I enjoy it. It breeds more pressure — two discrete forms of pressure that seem to mate and multiply like bunnies. One, is the pressure to ensure that we continue to deliver quality work, even as we have more to do. The second is the pressure to continue to build and move forward, to bring in more business.

Yesterday, I started in the office at 6 in the morning. Early in the evening, I took a nap. It felt great, until I woke up, at which point I felt guilty.

So I’ve figured this much out. There are two ways to enjoy success: philanthropy and materialism. I understand why rich people do both. Giving money away and buying stuff for myself and my family are, at least day in and day out, the only things I get to enjoy about success.

I’m just careful not to give too much away or buy too much stuff. I can only afford so much fun — rich, Blogenberg is not.

This entry was posted on Tuesday, October 21st, 2008 at 9:02 am and is filed under Business. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.

The trackback URL for this entry is
http://www.blogenberg.com/2008/10/21/success-stress/trackback/